a happy story to share

              “When someone makes a decision, he is really diving into a strong current that will carry him to places he had never dreamed of when he first made the decision. "- Paolo Coelho~ The Alchemist

               I think it's time to share what happened to me and what I did to bring back what makes me alive..

               After resigning ( or getting terminated by my Account Manager~ hate it), I started looking for a job but unfortunately got no luck. I decided to leave because I was too weak to face my personal problems and I wanted to run away and never come back.. so left..

              I run away.. left Manila and went to General Santos back into the comfort and safety arms of my family.But it was never a smooth journey back to find myself and regain my confidence after loosing what I value and worked so hard to prove myself somebody of worth.

               After 3 months from the time arrived, I was getting frustrated..I thought it'll be that easy to find a job and settle here.. but I was wrong, I have to prove to them that I am somebody that they can trust and be an asset to their company.. I applied to different banks, got rejected (they say I'm too old~ I'm 27 by the way), applied to different receptionist job vacancies.. that's a NO too, they say I don't look good (how sad~)  I attended every job fair  I attended 3 or 4 job fairs.. and went to Tambler to apply for the different fishing companies.. you don't know how far that is.. an hour an half travel and that's without traffic. One day, I got so tired from travelling and applying ~I visited three companies and they're like located at the end of the world~heck! I CRIED WHEN I GOT HOME.. I was frustrated and discouraged that I am getting nowhere. I was even ok with the secretarial job or a clerical job~ after having a high paying job.. but nobody wants to hire me.... OMG!! that's really frustrating and I feel defeated.. What am I to do now?...

            Good thing, I help myself up and started reading again... I bought books and came across eat, pray, love by Elizabeth Gilbert. 

   I started eating all I want, travelled to different places near our city like Lake Sebu, Davao, and sometimes to Manila, and most especially I learned how to pray. I studied and learned the Salah. I was determined to bring myself and live again. I also started painting and making bracelets ;-) I sell them too.. Now it’s been a year and I am so different from the sha I had been. 

these are just some of the things I busied myself.. I painted shirts with monsters degins

The crocs I painted;-) sweet...

this is one of the seven falls.. 

              and of course.. davao;-)

“Happiness is the consequence of personal effort. You fight for it, strive for it, insist upon it, and sometimes even travel around the world looking for it. You have to participate relentlessly in the manifestations of your own blessings. And once you have achieved a state of happiness, you must never become lax about maintaining it. You must make a mighty effort to keep swimming upward into that happiness forever, to stay afloat on top of it.” 
― Elizabeth Gilbert, Eat, Pray, Love

Now I'am a part time teacher in one of the best schools here in Gensan, I am studying and taking my masters for business administration, I work part time too for our family business and I get to still paint and make bracelets or whatever I please;-) Allah put everything in place...

                We should always fight , strive, and insist upon our happiness. I learned that it should never be dependent to anybody nor to anything. ..IT IS A PERSONAL EFFORT to keep the happiness in our hearts;-) Take time to listen to yourself, walk in the park and write about anything under the sun, celebrate every little blessing you have... the air you breathe, the daughter's laugh, and even the sight of a butterfly.. life is too short to be spent in pain, despair and frustration.. Love, love, love....